Friday, September 22nd, 2006
“The energy of hatred won’t get you anywhere; but the energy of forgiveness, which reveals itself through love, will transform your life in a positive ways”
Sounds familiar? Yeah, you’ve got it right. It is an excerpt from the book, The Zahir, by Paul Coelho.
The phrase struck me; it’s as if it talks to me…. Lately I feel depressed. A lot of things are going on with my life, my work especially. Everything has gone wrong; my best wasn’t good enough no matter how hard I try. I feel so frustrated. I think however that it’s a waste of energy and time to think on the how’s and the why’s. And just to keep my mind busy I decided to read the book. That is how I came upon this book, The Zahir.
Somebody told me that to enter the kingdom of God is to be child-like. A child cries and gets angry when his/her parents reprimand him/her. But after sometime, the child forgets his/her anger and will resume playing. They forgive and still love their parents.
Forgiveness is very hard to do. I’ll be hypocrite if I say that I easily forgive the person who hurt me. But if you practice the virtue of forgiveness, love comes your way. It will give you peace of mind.
This is what you and I want to achieve — Peace of Mind. This is one of the things I learned from the book. My goal now is to learn to forgive those people who have hurt me and made me cry. It’s hard to do because I know that, “Tao lang po ako, nagkakamali.” With the help of prayers however, I know it is possible. I know it will give me the peace of mind that I am longing for. All these things serve as a wake up call for me. I have realized now my mistakes and I learned to be humble. I began counting my blessings, blessings that I have taken for granted. Also, it made me realize how blessed I am. I have a loving family who always support me in everything I do and love me unconditionally. I have friends who are ready to give a helping hand and shoulder to cry on. I felt ashamed on the things I have done. I will try now to be child-like and to appreciate life as it is…. hoping that my life would be transformed in a more positive way.
“When I had nothing more to lose, I was given everything. When I ceased to be who I am I found myself. When I experience humiliation and yet kept on walking, I understood that I was free to choose my destiny.”
What is my destiny? “You are my destiny,” as the song goes. I don’t know the next lyrics though. But in more ways than one people try to search their one true love. When they found it they would say that they are destined to be together forever. Serendipity as some would say it; just like in the movie. It’s frightening however to entertain the thought that what if you search and nobody is found, would that mean you did not reach your destiny? I must confess that I tried going to a manghuhula for fun and just to satisfy my curiosity. I’d like to know who my future husband would be and if I could have children of my own. Would I go abroad? Would I be successful in my life? Unfortunately, my questions were not answered by the manghuhula. I realized in the end that I am the one who is responsible to chart my own destiny. I am the captain of my soul. My life is my project.
“All you have to do is to pay attention; lessons always arrive when you are ready, and if you can read the signs you will learn everything you need to know in order to take the next step.”
I have not finished reading the book, yet I have gathered some beautiful phrases that I can relate to. I just want to share to everybody my thought regarding the content of the book. I am not saying though that after reading the book, all your questions about life would be answered. All I can assure of is that the book can help you in more ways than one, just like what it has done to me. God Bless You All.
Dette 06/02/06
